TODAY I BLOG!!! It seems that this ‘dream’ has been inside of me for so long that it is fearful of coming out. Today, I face that fear and bid it farewell. I cannot recall when it first came around, but it was a nudge that would not leave me. In time, the nudge became an explosion inside. I could not, cannot contain it any longer. I have embraced my dream and I want it to live out loud.
“Fear thou not. Be not afraid. Fear not.” Why do we let such a small word keep us frozen in our tracks? I stare at it, yet it does not move. Fear just looms before us, taunting us that we cannot. What is your ‘cannot’ that grows bigger with each and every day? When we press in to Jesus and determine to press on, fear will have to leave. I chose to believe Him and not fear. Fear makes my faith seem shallow. I want faith that does the impossible.
I read it again and again. How many times had this word, His Word, come before me? This verse that will not leave me alone. Five years now, it has come and spoken to my heart…to my fear. “Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.” That right hand that means power, strength and might that I cannot wrap my brain around. A power that cannot be measured. I have studied that hand, questioned that hand, and even cried about that hand that knows no limits, no boundaries or blockades, and ‘no fear!’ It clicked! How could I fear? Why should I fear? Why would I fear? Fear crumbled under that power! That right hand is holding me and nothing can penetrate that hand. Nothing can come to me unless He allows it to come. If He allows it, then He controls it and it has a purpose in the making of me.
Earlier this week, while checking in with my sweet friend, she encouraged me more than she will ever know. She had been studying for a ladies meeting and Jesus became so real in her season of brokenness. He has a tendency to do that when He speaks. She shared scripture from Luke 5 to try and lift me from where my season of brokenness has me. You see, we are all broken in some way, shape or form. Seasons bring many things, but broken seasons bring a change that mark us forever. Good change or bad change is determined by our action or reaction. I want good and I want action. I rehearsed the verses over in my heart, I knew them well. The LORD had used them years back to start me on a journey toward intimacy with Him. My question, “am I still believing You, LORD?” I pondered over the books that I had finished reading, books that drew me to His heart, books that unleashed the dream. Was I ready to ‘launch out into the deep’? I thought that I had, but He gently reminded me of my position. You know that position, playing it safe just talking about the dream. Today, I am still talking about the dream, but only to bring freshness, life and beautiful ideas to nurture and grow it. But also today, this day, I am ‘launching out into the deep’! I am embracing this amazing dream that my Savior has birthed inside of me. I am anxious to see where He takes me and this dream. What about you? What fear, what struggle, what obstacle looms so big before you? It really isn’t that big, it is just your fear talking. Trust Him! Rehearse those scriptures that are misplaced. You know them, those verses that you thought would just go away. Truth that you wished would simply disappear and not call out to your heart anymore. Embrace them Dear Friend. Life will enter into your season of brokenness. “Launch out into the deep” and see where Jesus will take you and your dream.